I am absolutely crushed right now and can't seem to stop crying. This is the kind of pain that hurts deep,the abandonment pain that I've known since I was a child. I'm turning to Jesus..."Can't you just make it go away!" I'm always going to have to deal with pain but he is here. He will listen while I moan and hold me as I cry and he promises never to leave me, ever. I can get through this now, because love has a hold of me.